The road to recovery and restoration is definitely not an easy one. However, I will say, that once you have found security within yourself, you learn to handle things differently. Your responses shift. Your heart, while beating with anxiety, worry, passion, or motivation, is able to put your mind in check.
I said this in an earlier entry and I believe it still holds true, even months later. “Heart OVER mind. The mind will cripple you if you let it.” We have the power within ourselves to choose how we want to respond to life. The good, the bad and everything in-between.
I reached a point over the summer where I realized that in order to fully heal and pursue my dreams, everything needed to be brought to the surface, as painful as that was going to be. “Why am I afraid of my own potential?” “Why don’t I practice what I preach in certain areas?” “Will this dream and career ever pan out?” Those were some of the questions I have has to ask myself over the last few weeks in this second half of my summer. It has been tiring but more than redemptive.
I started a new journal and am currently spending a lot of my time picking apart my entire life. Why I operate the way that I do, why certain behaviors exist, how will I break more chains, etc. As I said, tiring, but redemptive.
If there’s something that I can tell you all it’s that no dream is too small in the eyes of God. There will be blood, sweat and tears and sometimes we end up right where we needed to be–after going through the unthinkable. Everybody has a story and every story is worth telling. Pursue what you love, and patiently and diligently do whatever it takes to make those dreams into a reality.
So respond appropriately, love effortlessly and extend grace continually, even when you don’t want to. I have been attempting to do this is all of my relationships and it’s hard, but I know it will pay off.
Take every step you can to honor God and the rest will fall into place. Whatever life throws at us, we have a choice: BITTER OR BETTER.
Which are you gonna choose?
“While I’m Waiting” by John Waller